Yuck

I feel like dealing with life after cancer has been WAY harder than dealing with life during cancer.  Sure, I pooped myself a few times, was constantly tired, made several trips to the ER, and felt like I was suicidal toward the end.  However, now that the drugs have worn off, I'm having a hard time dealing with the fact that I was looking forward to things going "back to normal," when "normal" isn't what it used to be.

I hate going to church on Sunday because it reminds me that "normally" I would be spending time with my Iowa family and friends afterward.  I don't feel I'm very good at my sales job, because instead of doing something I love, I'm graded on how much stuff I can sell people.  I still have plenty of days where I feel I wouldn't mind if someone shot me or crashed into me and I died, but now I can't blame it on the drugs.  Now it's just me.

Once upon a time it felt like life was fairly simple and straightforward.  Now it's complex and confusing.

But... what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.  Right?

A Night At The Ball

Never in my life did I envision going to a ball.  For starters, I didn't think they existed anymore.  I equated balls with Cinderella, and Cinderella isn't real.  Therefore, balls aren't real, right?

Wrong.

A few months ago, Isaac was invited to attend the MOCF (Michigan Osteopathic College Foundation) Ball and he so sweetly asked me to come as his date.  I said yes.  This event would be an amazing networking opportunity for him, and we couldn't pass that up!

The event was last night and it was incredible, to say the least!  Here are some pictures!

The menu for the night.

Our ride to and from the event.  Around 20 of us from the MUC campus pitched in and rented a limo instead of all driving separately.

Before people were seated.  There were around 900 people in attendance!!

Some of Isaac's schoolmates enjoying their food.

Really sweet centerpieces!  One lucky person at each table got to take the flower arrangement home at the end of the night (but not the stand)!

The lobby at the hotel.  The car that Amy and I are standing in front of was given away in a raffle.  Tickets were $100 each and MOCF ended up making $70,000 by the end of the night from the raffle alone.

The school asked that we write thank you notes to the people who donated our tickets.  We ended up having even more to say thank you for, as Isaac won a trip to Cancun for us!  Looks like we'll finally be able to go on a honeymoon!!  Woohoo!!